"Sing , O barren, you who have not borne!
Break forth with singing and cry aloud. You who have not labored with child! For more are the children of the desolate
Than the children of the married woman," says the Lord.
"Enlarge the place of your tent, And let them stretch out the curtains of your dwellings; Do not spare; Lengthen your cords,
And strengthen your stakes.
For you shall expand to the right and to the left,
And your descendants will inherit the nations,
And make the desolate cities inhabited."
Isaiah 54:1-3
I long to see a person that looks like me And my husband. To see the look in my husband's eyes as he firsts glances at our little one. It has been a difficult eight years of wanting and not getting. We have done countless cycles of fertility treatments and have seen a specialist, all for not. I did have one pregnancy and was thrilled, it was taken from me at 10 weeks. That was a hard lesson of "the Lord gives and takes away." I have struggled with all the questions; why me? Why her? And seeing teenagers and women who don't want children have one after the other, or hearing of their abortions. Seeing my younger siblings have children, and everyone tells me "your time is coming"....I hate that one!!!! We have had opportunities to possibly adopt several times and it always fell through. My thoughts, "I can't even have someone elses kids." Oh, I have cried many tears!
The Lord first gave me the scripture in Isaiah in 2003, while I was praying over a situation, and many times since then through others. I have stood upon that promise! It took me a long time to BEGIN to see the plans He has for me (for us).
In '03 a little 10 year old boy came to stay with us. His mother was an acquaintance, and she was not in a good place. I offered to take him until she got on her feet again, so the state wouldn't take him....she agreed...he has never left!! He is our son now, I am his Mom. His sister was with us for a time and went back home. Then in '06 I received a phone call that she was in CYFD (Children Youth and Family) custody. We became foster parents and at 16 she came to live with us, we adopted her. It was final 2 days before her 18th birthday.
May of 07 is when I lost my baby. I cried out to the Lord, I told Him that I was leaving it in His hands. I was finally at the piont where I could say, "God if you never give me a child I will still love you with all of my heart and move on with my life in You without sadness. My days of crying and dwelling over not having a child are over." His Grace is sufficient for me. I will serve Him in the waiting. I will worship in the waiting.
We opened our home to other foster children in April '08. There has been 25-30 kids stay in our home since then. Some for a night and some for a year. We have four girls right now that have been with us for almost a year and a half.
We have let them stretch out the curtains of our dwellings, we have lengthened our cord and strengthened our stakes. We have seen this promise from God come to pass in our lives!! Our God is a good God and He has a plan for us! We are blessed because He has CHOSEN us to do this work. We are privillaged to be able to touch the lives of so many youth. To show and share the love of Christ with them. He has given me the desires of my heart, just not in the way one would expect.
God is Great!!
Break forth with singing and cry aloud. You who have not labored with child! For more are the children of the desolate
Than the children of the married woman," says the Lord.
"Enlarge the place of your tent, And let them stretch out the curtains of your dwellings; Do not spare; Lengthen your cords,
And strengthen your stakes.
For you shall expand to the right and to the left,
And your descendants will inherit the nations,
And make the desolate cities inhabited."
Isaiah 54:1-3
I long to see a person that looks like me And my husband. To see the look in my husband's eyes as he firsts glances at our little one. It has been a difficult eight years of wanting and not getting. We have done countless cycles of fertility treatments and have seen a specialist, all for not. I did have one pregnancy and was thrilled, it was taken from me at 10 weeks. That was a hard lesson of "the Lord gives and takes away." I have struggled with all the questions; why me? Why her? And seeing teenagers and women who don't want children have one after the other, or hearing of their abortions. Seeing my younger siblings have children, and everyone tells me "your time is coming"....I hate that one!!!! We have had opportunities to possibly adopt several times and it always fell through. My thoughts, "I can't even have someone elses kids." Oh, I have cried many tears!
The Lord first gave me the scripture in Isaiah in 2003, while I was praying over a situation, and many times since then through others. I have stood upon that promise! It took me a long time to BEGIN to see the plans He has for me (for us).
In '03 a little 10 year old boy came to stay with us. His mother was an acquaintance, and she was not in a good place. I offered to take him until she got on her feet again, so the state wouldn't take him....she agreed...he has never left!! He is our son now, I am his Mom. His sister was with us for a time and went back home. Then in '06 I received a phone call that she was in CYFD (Children Youth and Family) custody. We became foster parents and at 16 she came to live with us, we adopted her. It was final 2 days before her 18th birthday.
May of 07 is when I lost my baby. I cried out to the Lord, I told Him that I was leaving it in His hands. I was finally at the piont where I could say, "God if you never give me a child I will still love you with all of my heart and move on with my life in You without sadness. My days of crying and dwelling over not having a child are over." His Grace is sufficient for me. I will serve Him in the waiting. I will worship in the waiting.
We opened our home to other foster children in April '08. There has been 25-30 kids stay in our home since then. Some for a night and some for a year. We have four girls right now that have been with us for almost a year and a half.
We have let them stretch out the curtains of our dwellings, we have lengthened our cord and strengthened our stakes. We have seen this promise from God come to pass in our lives!! Our God is a good God and He has a plan for us! We are blessed because He has CHOSEN us to do this work. We are privillaged to be able to touch the lives of so many youth. To show and share the love of Christ with them. He has given me the desires of my heart, just not in the way one would expect.
God is Great!!
